In January, I was diagnosed with ADHD. It’s now May. I’m not surprised at all to be diagnosed with ADHD. It’s also so incredibly validating to finally have the diagnoses. It’s also amazing to finally connect with people who’s brains work the same way mine does. Today I’ve been so overstimulated all day that my head was hurting much similar to when one eats something cold too quickly and gets a brain freeze. I often get these brain freeze like headaches when I’m over or understimulated.
Today, I recieved a shipment from Amazon (I should not have access to adult money). In this shipment were the fidgets I ordered for my students. I opened them up and tested them out just to see what I thought of them and if they were something I wanted my students to have in class (sometimes fidgets can be too loud or distracting). These ones are going to be so great! Just using them a little bit this evening has helped my brain level out and unfreeze.
I always seem to forget how much fidgeting with things actually benefits me and my brain. The ways I tend to express my hyperactive symptoms would be talking so an insane amount or bouncing my knee up and down rapidly. Currently, typing is helping with my fidgeting because of how and what speed I am moving my fingers at.
There’s not much of a point to this post other than a brain dump. I’ve been sorting through quite a bit in my life lately. Navigating growing up with a gaslighter and the childhood trauma that goes with that, as well as finally having a diagnoses and reason behind why I’m struggling so much with balancing life, school, and work. I also decided that for some reason I need to join the local fire department and take EMT courses this summer. Plus I’m working summer school. That paragraph I just wrote alone makes me question why it took 22 years to be diagnosed with ADHD.
In all honesty, I don’t remember why I needed to brain dump or what exactly I had originally intended to write about. However, now that I’m done dumping some random thoughts, I’m no loger struggling with that brain freeze that I’ve been feeling all day.
Sorting Through the Shit 